there begins to

be the feeling of:
'if you die in a dream do you really die'
about all this:

if i find all there is to find of
images gone by (my scrapbook, clearly,
however motivated, there are too many
loved ones here and times marked and
accompanied by hope no longer reclaimable,
whatever alchemy might be learned yet
by the aging sorcerer) what happens then?

have the ghosts (both positive and negative,
whatever their power to block my path into
future realms) been exorcised?

what paradigm can i invoke or rune throw
since i have so insisted upon the unchartedness
of my course?

hmmm